We all tend to lose patience and we all are subject to it. It just happened to me earlier today on a UJ put because I felt pressure and after having waited too long I decided to go for it, but was not a goo idea. This after 5y
I think you need a plan, although you speak about it you don't seem to have one. If you can't respect a plan, consider yourself as not having one.
The fact that you could not withdraw after so much time is a bit problematic, maybe you just deposit too much and you are expecting too much in return. Maybe try to deposit small, double it and withdraw so that in your mind you start fresh on same balance but with nothing to lose ?
There are no better times to trade bins than others, but in the end you need to be able to differentiate when your expiry will work or not, now if you change your expiry all the time it adds serious complexity to an already random enough environment.
Being a gambler or not is something very subjective and you should not pay attention to what other think about it, in life you can gamble about many decisions that will impact you for a lifetime. The most important thing is how you react to think, i.e. you can be in a gambling environment but still using a conservative approach, or you can be in a very stable environment and have a gambling attitdue...
Bottom line is to know if you wanna stop or not from now on.
I have a plan just when I loose my head I am not able to strict to it. My trading plan not so big, and my expectation is not too big, but maybe just my opinion. For eg. If upload my balance X amount, I risk 3-5 % of my total balance per trade. The percentage It is up to my balance, so if I have 300€ on my account I start with 10-15€ per trade and just 1 trade per time. If I am on a lower amount like 300€ I use much more 5%, but If I am on 1000€ I use 3-4%, I do not want too much, 10-20% profit every trading day. I think it is possible to do it consistently, because according to my plan 10% profit it is reachable with 2 trade 20% with 3 trade, but this is up to the mount what I am wiling to risk per trade, but maximum 5%. I am willing to loose 10% of my total balance per trading day or 2 OTM in a raw. In my last trading session when I was in profit it was 8 trading day and I was always in profit end of the day or if I have reached my daily goal. On that time I was strict to my rules and worked very well. Yesterday I was lifting between 600 and 680€. ITM, OTM,ITM, ITM,ITM, OTM, ITM but It was not enough for me, unfortunately I knew that, "I should stop now" because today is not my day, but the evil in my head was stronger. When I am strict to my rules never use martingale, I do not need that and I am just confused with it.
3 months ago I have started take a picture from my trades and write if the trade was good enough or not, but than I was too lazy to records my trades. So somewhere I have started walk on the right way, but I was not enough strong.
My plan to reach my first 10K maybe too big, maybe not, I just know It is possible to reach it. Do not misunderstand me, I do not want it now from today to tomorrow, but with a good plan, is possible to reach under 1 months but let's say 2 month. I know it is not easy, and I have to put my effort and time. But if I reach my goal, then I can earn bigger amount per trade. 10K € is my 8 months salary in my job. So that is why I want to reach my goal.
Yes, sometimes my environment is not easy, my girlfriend support me, but friends and another family members do not understand my viewpoint. Another thing, If I have a winner series and I tell to somebody "Hey man I was succes with X amount" than the next trading day I am able to loose almost everything, but at least 50% of my balance. I do not understand this kind of situation, I could not be happy when i win otherwise the next day I will loose? This is one also frustrate me, I do not know If somebody has this situation too!?